Let's start at the very beginning, a very good place to start

I really don't know how to start this. You would think I could since this is like the 5th or 6th blog I've had. The very first one I started was in 7th grade, and it was a xanga. Remember xanga? Needless to say those ramblings were not very prolific or visionary for the time. And for all I know these ramblings now won't be anything special, but I figured I would do this for me. Which is all that matters I guess.

So, the purpose of this blog is to be my sort of "Acting Journal". I've tried many a time to start journals in my notebooks for different classes or shows that I'm in, and it always ends up poorly. I'm not much of a real life writer, but I do like to blog once in a while (which sounds very 21st century of me). So I figure I could start anew at another website with this. It will in no way be a diarrhea of the keyboard, listing life stresses and personal problems, unless they deal with acting, theatre, or anything of that nature. So, here goes...


It's been nice to have a small break from the theatre. It got so busy toward the end of the semester. It got to the point where I would look at a script and try to memorize, yet I couldn't do it. WTF?!? I never have problems memorizing a script! I say that with confidence because that is one of my strong suits; I can memorize quickly and pretty efficiently. But when I have issues memorizing a modern scene...then I can tell I need a break.

I think I put too much on my plate. I had people keep coming up to me and ask me "Hey, want to do a reading for my script?" or "Hey, want to be in my directing scene?". I think I figured out that by the end of the semester I did 4 directing scenes and 5 script readings within like 2 months. I need to learn to say no. People keep telling me that I can say no now because I've proven myself, but to me it's not about that as much. I have this mindset that I can learn from every theatrical experience I do, no matter how good or how bad. I always take something away from each experience, so I feel like the more I do the more I will learn. I don't know if it's necessarily true, but I think it's done me well thus far.

I'm ready to get back into the swing of a show. I haven't been in a real show since Jan/Feb (I really don't count RROAPS because it was a mini version of being in a show). I miss the first awkward rehearsals where no one has any idea who their character is. I miss those brilliant moments you have during a rehearsal that brings a scene together. I just miss all of it. I'm excited to get the opportunity to be in 3 shows over the summer. First up is summer rep. I told myself once I got the scripts that I wouldn't look at them until I felt I was ready because I was so stressed and worn-out; so yesterday I finally grabbed the scripts and high lighted my parts. To me that signals that I am ready to start a role and the process that goes along with it. I'm really excited about "Cabin Fever" because my character is so damn interesting! "Lone Star Love Potion" is an easier role, but I want to make sure my character has enough layers to make her real. I'll probably do some character analysis on here, so look forward to it.

I'm excited for the opportunities that await me over the summer. I hope that this journal will give an insight to the process of an awkward actor, or just the process in general.