The difference between a cow and a bean is that a bean can begin an adventure!

So, I'm in a much more optimistic place than I was last time. Things have turned around and I guess worked out better than I could have imagined. Funny how life turns out that way, huh?

I just recently participated in a staged reading of a play called "Sullied Flesh" by Margie. It wasn't anything fancy; we had our scripts in hand and just did basic blocking, but it was amazing. The part I read for is basically a female version of Hamlet. I feel bad because I really didn't do the part the justice it deserves, but I think I did well for only two rehearsals. I would have loved to play the role in an actual production. And one thing I've told Margie before is that I don't know if it's just crazy timing or what, but the parts that I play in her shows coincide with what I'm feeling and going through at that exact moment in my life. So a lot of what I do isn't really acting, it's almost like me going through therapy onstage lol. It happened during "Phallus Pan" and it happened during the staged reading. I don't know if it's necessarily a bad thing what happens...I guess not really if you get truth in the end, which is what I think happens. There was one specific part of the script that hit me most; it's a part where my character finally gets to "talk" with God, which is the whole reason why she goes through traveling to Mars and going to a monastery to write a play. The writing is so simple yet so poignant and it's the exact things I want to say to God if I could have a conversation with him. I actually cried the last night we did it because I feel so frustrated with the whole religion thing and I have no idea what I truly believe in anymore. But I guess that's good because for me it was complete and utter truth, so hopefully it came across that way on stage.

And onto other good news...I got cast in "Children of a Lesser God"!!! It almost totally makes up for not getting cast in the main season because it's one of my dream shows. I read the script when I was a sophomore in high school and fell in love because of the sign language in it. And now I get to play a dream role of mine, and I'm ecstatic. I'm also completely petrified of what lies ahead. I have so much research that I have to do and soooooooooooooooooooooooo much signing I have to learn. I sign the entire show and I'm just at the level of an elementary school student. I have to eventually get to the point where I'm signing at the rate that dear people would sign at. It's a daunting task but I am willing to put in all the hours to do it. I know I've been saying this a lot in my blogs, but this will be my most challenging role yet. But I am looking forward to this unique experience because not only will it be so fulfilling as an actor but if I can nail it it'll show others that I can do more than comedy. I can have range people!

I also have "A Night with Beaver" scenes going on in between everything AND auditions for the one-acts are coming up. I want to squeeze in as much acting opportunities as possible! Along with directing scenes and period styles I probably will lose my mind some point...I might self-destruct before my 21st birthday but I don't care because by god it is theatre and I love it!